Ah.

It's Easter Sunday. Spring has sprung. I like this time of year. The time when you meet with family and friends to talk, catch up and generally be around people whom you love. My mother and I had a light supper with her family. It was her birthday too, so we planned a little surprise. It was a nice time. Even when I debated why I like Hillary and am proud to be a Democrat against just about everyone present.

But it made me think. Easter is all about rebirth. It's one of my favorite holidays for that reason. It's like another new year if you think about it. This is another chance to change. Another opportunity to grow has been given to me. I can change the things in my life that I don't like. New job. New outlook. New thought. Maybe even a new country soon enough.

I have been feeling so down lately. It's no surprise. When you're out of work and can't afford gasoline, you generally tend to stay indoors, bored and depressed, waiting for life to happen. I apply for jobs online, I send my resumes out, I make excuses to debt collectors. I see the laundry that I need to do, the dishes I should put away, the piles of mail that I should go through. I get breathless. I feel sick and completely alone. Then all of a sudden, there is family. There are friends. People planning things for me to do.

I have plans to meet Amanda on the 6th, after work when she comes out from Indiana. Once gainfully employed, there are trips to New Hampshire to see Linda and Izzy; to New York to see Tamara and Alto; and Toronto with Laura to see no one I know, but have a good time.

I am ready for these new and exciting things in my life. I am even thankful that I didn't get a part or a job with the theatre. I am just looking forward to working, gaining some stability and watching as my life starts to get better. A friend from a class in college decided recently to quit her job and write the novel that she has to share with the world. I adore her. I so admire her bravery. She made me realize that the right time isn't always right when we want it, but it does come along.

I feel refreshed somehow. I feel poised to ace that interview. I fell ready to at least get my stuff together and move on from what I had to what I want.