this is really happening...

isn't it?

Well. It is September 1.

Wow.

I know what you're thinking: "Wow? Really? What's so WOW about September 1?"

Okay, I'll tell you.

This is it. I am no longer able to say that I will be heading up to Boston "Next month". Now it is this month. Frankly, that's a little scary. I'm nervous just talking about it.

I will be driving up on the 29th. That's 28 days. 4 weeks.

Wow.

Laura and her roommates have offered me a couch for a few weeks (hopefully no more than 2) while I finalize an apartment, a job and a move that will hopefully include my father driving the u-haul up instead of me. We'll see. I'll bet he'll do it if I ask nicely and pay for it.

But it's really freaky. And, while I know it'll be fine, there is part me that is not so sure.

I know that this is good for me. I have needed a change of scene for a long time. Boston seems the most logical place to go. I have some friends there. There are more jobs there. It's bigger, so I am allowed more anonymity. I know that I will do a lot of that growing up I've heard so much about. Maybe that's why I'm scared. Maybe that and something else.

I had called my District Manager and asked for a transfer. I figured I would work at one or all of the three locations we have in the Boston Area. However, she mentioned that there was a new location going into Logan International Airport and she wanted me to manage it. I wasn't thrilled, mind you, by the thought of a full-time retail job, but I did like the idea of making enough money to pay my bills every month.

But when I didn't hear back from her, I got a little worried. Was I being promoted or not? So I called and asked.

"Well, Patti, we're not sure now."

The location was supposed to open in September, but by the time I had heard about it they had already pushed it to October. Now, we don't know when it is going in. If it doesn't open by late November, it won't go in until March. So I have some more job hunting to do.

Granted, I was planning on coming into Boston with a part-time retail job in the beginning. But I always knew that it wouldn't be enough. I have a very short amount of time in which to find gainful employment or I will have to go back to Danbury. The money isn't better there by a long shot, but the rent is lower.

I have sent out emails, resumes, cover letters... Tomorrow I can call around to people I've already contacted and ask for interviews. I figure that way, even if there aren't jobs available now, if one opens up for which I am qualified, I will be one step closer to it. There is always the possibility of simply asking for a job that doesn't exist yet just to see if it works.

But for now, I wait and I wonder.

What am I getting myself into?