I'm so dizzy, my head is spinning

Life is strange. At the beginning of the summer I was crossing my fingers that I would be able to work at the camp I went to as a child. When I realized that it wasn't going to happen I was crushed. But within minutes Karol sent me an email alerting me to a website and a job that might interest me. I called the number listed and was told "We have enough counselors, but apply anyway, sometimes people don't show up." I applied on Monday. I drove up and interviewed on Friday and started work the following Monday.

I have never been so fortunate to work with a better group of people. Apart from five people, the staff was entirely women at this girls camp. I loved it. It was hard and sometimes I thought "When I get home, I am going to kill Karol." But, I really enjoyed myself overall. At my interview I met April, the Adventure Specialist. She did all low/high ropes and I would be assisting her all summer long. I love April. She was so amazing. I was so lucky to work under and with her. It felt so great to have that to look forward to everyday.

However, it was summer camp. Seven weeks doesn't last too long. The last day was coming up and I was unemployed as of 11:01 am, August 20. I was a little nervous. I know the trend: great job, crap job, ok job, awful job, unemployed, good job... I was so scared that I would end up living in Danbury, working in the mall, trying to stay positive in an environment that made me want to cry.

But April, and Scarlett (another close friend from camp), told me about a website that had tons of jobs in which I might be interested. I found two that were interesting and applied to one. That's my weakness, I know I need a job, but I can't seem to get that light under my ass lit.

I faxed in my resume, cover letter and application packet on Monday, August 13. The Director called April for a reference. Then I called him a few hours later to check in as requested. I was in April's car, on her phone when he hired me to work for the school year.

Now I've finished my training and I have ten kids. I am confidently nervous. Everyone at camp was so happy for me - and REALLY supportive. I have never felt so loved by so many people. A lot of people cried when I said goodbye the last time. I didn't realize that I could have that effect on people. One, in particular, told me that she felt like we were sisters and that she had relied on me throughout the suumer and had learned so much from me. I got that a lot. People learned a lot from me this summer. I can't imagine what, but it is so wonderful to hear.

Most of the staff this year were international and I'm already planning my trip to the UK next year so I can see everyone again.

I just wanted to let you all know. Thanks for all the support and I hope that you find the same happiness in your lives even if it makes you think you'll pee your pants because you're wigging out. Life is more fun that way.

"Climb up, look down, steady yourself. Jump"